Dwelling In The Dreamy Land

2007-01-29T22:48:00.000-08:00

HEY GUYS!
WHO ARE LOOKING AT THIS BLOG NOW...
GINA HAD STOP BLOGGING LE...
NO LONGER FEEL LIKE BLOGGING...
AND NO TIME FOR BLOGGING...
SO THIS IS HER FIRST BLOG FOR 2007....
AND THE LAST BLOG FOR 2007...
ALL THE BEST AHEAD....
MUACKS!!!

2006-12-15T01:16:00.000-08:00

Time really flies...n i mean it really really flies...i was looking back my friendster testimonial...n found a lots of memories there...testimonials from my last sem classmates...sec sch classmates...usher ministry friends...n my pervious cg members n leader...I begin to miss those times...with all of them...i love them...i really miss them alots..times flies...n it really flies...

Friends...if when the day come...tt i had to leave this world...i hope i had done my very best in all of ur life...cos Gina's very wish n best present is to see...ppl's life change...n change for a better future...hmm...i know i am too young to say this...but...this wat i felt after a death of my relative...i jus miss her...thou i am not very close wif her..i'll still miss her...cos she had done smth in my life...perhape not directly...but she still done her very best my family:)

2006-12-09T01:22:00.000-08:00

Even both of u dun understand me...its ok...dun hab to...n dun try anymore...even both of u were to try..there are some words i can say...thanks for trying but sorry...the door of my heart had already shut for both of u...dun ask me y... i dun wan tok to both of u anymore...cos i feel sick n tired toking to both of u...cos both of u only fulfill the duties of ur roles onli...tt wat i feel..2 of u r people so close to my heart...yet..both of u hurt me so bad...wat ever i had done...n i done so much..but both of u dun see it...wat the point..useless...please...u all dun hab to understand me anymore...dun try to...cos...my reactions going to hurt the both of u...there is one thing both of u got to accept...u all had lost ur girl...hey..i tired ..but both of u...make it impossible...Another thing is...stop restricting my freedom..when i dun hab much freedom already...

To those reading this blog...please read for the sake of reading...please dun understand...

2006-11-27T23:15:00.000-08:00

...W355...my beloved cell group...
...We had splitted and went to different paths...
...But I will still remember all these times we spend together...
...We grew in these one whole year...
...I enjoy the time we spend together...
...Now the W355 we had...
...No longer the same...
...Because we multipled...
...Bigger family...
...Some of you went to another cell group...
...Some of us stay...
...People add into this cell group...
...But all these changes had one purpose...
...Change is good...
...Changes made us grow even more...
...I want to see each and everyone of you to grow...
...Guys in Stephen's cell group...
...I know we are not going to activity together anymore...
...But we still had this strong friendship we had...
...We will still be friends...
...Guys in Stephen's cell group...
...Grow and Grow more...
...I will miss you all...
...I hope you all will be able to adapt and enjoy yourself there...
...Anna and Peishan...
...Hope both of you will enjoy in Faith's cell group...
...Cons...Susan...Daruis...
...Grow more in Cuen Cuen's cell group...
...To my New W355...
...Let's grow more n more too...
...Year 2007...
...Will be a year of greater heights...
...For all the cell groups that had multipled...

This is to Tan Poh Meng aka Poh Poh...I will still be going to your house to bake cake for Christmas! Hehehe...I will still bring our formal W355 members there...hehheheh....

My heart feel the pain...and my heart tears..
In tears..I post this...
Love you guys...

2006-11-16T00:15:00.000-08:00

These few days I am very into photoshop...so I took some photos and photoshop them...the result of photoshopping...is AMAZING! I love the results...it really protray the feelings of the photos that I took.

..This is my first piece of work...

..took this when I was on my way home..

...This is my second piece of work...
..taken when I was in bathroom after 11 Nov 2006 service..

...This is my third piece of work...

..taken in class W25J..

...This is my fourth piece of work...
..taken when I was on the way home too..

...This is my fifth piece of work...

..Taken with ying..

Ying...this is a gift to you...thanks for being around all these years and all these while...when I needed someone to hear me out..you are there for me...though there are things you do not understand at all..but you still willing to listen to me and keeping me accompanied...Thanks ying...love you...

2006-11-07T13:51:00.000-08:00

She's in love...fallen in love...I'm in love...fallen in love...with Korea drama and songs...super nice...even the songs sound so cultural...Korea drama...is very cultural. Though the storyline of the stories are always very similar...However, the characters inside the stories are very interesting...The actors and actresses can really bring out the the characters' characters...sound confusing ar..hahaha...Not only that...Korea drama allow me to understand their culture...not all..but at least some of it...The show are nice..super nice...I hope my 21st birthday...my present will be a trip to KOREA!!! I want and I want to travel to Korea...not only that..I can get to visit the world largest church...hehhee...Da Han Ming Guo:)

2006-11-03T12:49:00.000-08:00

'Princess Hours' a show that make me feel that I live in a fairytale. That make me feel that the world is such a beautiful place. However, after finish watching the whole show, haiz..got to go back to reality...that, this world is a broken down world...we won't be living in a fairytale...fairytale belong to people who live in fairyland...however...we are not people who live in fairyland...we are people who live in a broken down world...Perhape...this is why 'Princess Hours' this show is created...because we are not living in a fairyland and that why, this show came to console people..who hope for a fairytale but they know that there wont be one in this broken down world...in this cruel reality...

Haiz...fairytale will always be a fairytale...reality will always be a reality that we people need to face in this broken down world...Hmm..I also hope I could had mine own fairytale..haiz...but I know I wont had one...but still got to be strong living in this broken down world...having such attitude...this world is actually not that difficult to survive...perhape and maybe...I habnt stepped into the working society...that why this sentence can be said that easily...perhape...i really dunno...how would think when I become a real adult...

Enough of the Fairytale...Welcome back to the Reality...
God...bless your People in this broken down world...
Smile...

2006-10-27T00:06:00.000-07:00

For the past one month had been feeling very lousy...and recently...i feel even worse...haiz...guess its all my fault to all things...however...there is someone who always tell me everything happened for a reason...everything has its own time n season...

I guess we are all authors of our own memories...people in your memories...had a part to play in it...Memories flow in every second of my day...during the day...I will feel better..but when the night arrived...I will feel very down...depress...

Sometime..is not up to you to say to seperate with someone...but sometime you can choose to seperate with someone..even you are seperated from that someone...the only thing you had now..that will never seperate from you will always be the memories. Memories...can be, painful memories..ugly memories...memories that you wish you would not want it to be memorised...however all the memories that are left with me...will always be memories that are beautifully written....even memories that will make me cry...will be a beautful memories...

Our memories with one another...beautifully written...
In tears...I post this...
...Got to be stronger than before...
...By His strength I will arise...
Smile...:P(bleh...hee!)

2006-10-22T15:23:00.000-07:00

I was very much affected...affected by all the news I had been receiving on that single day...I was very very shock and upset..Really...Life is really unpredictable..Everyone can change..change to be very ungrateful...What on earth had happened...Though they are not very close to me...They are only a hi-bye friend to me..And one of them...I don't even talk to him before..But..Is just so disappointing...Seeing them being like that...I was really affected..They are people who I see it with an expection in my heart...But...Like what most people says...Great expection...Great disappointment..Looking through their friendster...Their blog...It just speck to me one thing...Life is unpredictable...Human do change...The only person who will always being faithful will always be Him...GOD... Though I do not know what really happened in their lives...I guess there are reasons to this decision they made...Maybe are reasons that I really dun understand...But one thing I know is...Even I dun understand...I believe God will always understand how they feel..haiz..People do come & go in life...But not necessary to made such a decision...If you think it through...

2006-10-01T21:32:00.000-07:00

Read something very meaningful that applied to my life after that very day.

::...Testing...::

Testing was the title of the message...allow me to share...and I hope it will help those of you facing the same problem as me...

Proverbs 1 : 25 -26 (KJV)
But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof: I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your fear cometh.

Once, when I was young, I climbed a tree against the wishes of my mother. I got high up in the branches and found that I could neither continue forward nor go back. I held tight to a large branch and began to cry. I yelled for my mother, and I could see her out to where I was captive. Instead of being angry, as I thought she would be, she began to laugh, and placing her hands on her hips, she said, " I told you not to try to climb up there. Now look at you. Why do you think I tell you not to do some things?"

All too often, our inclination is to test God. We know what He says He wants us to do with things, but we do other things instead. We try to get away with things we know we should not. When we find ourselves in trouble we look to God to bail us out, and we cannot understand why He doesn't jump to our aid. Often God allows us to struggle through adversity in order to learn that He means what He says.

After reading this passage, I was very much convicted because of what I had done. I struggled! I struggled through adversity...just like what the message had said...I thought God will not be helping me anymore...however, the message does not stop there. It followed...

Dear Heavenly Father, I so often do what I know You do not want me to. Forgive my foolishness and disobedience. Help, me to head Your will, not my own. Amen.

After saying this, I feel the healing came and I began to feel better. I feel His presence filled my heart... If you think that, you had done something against someone's wishes which meant to help you and you feel you had done wrong. Admit it, ask for forgiveness from the person, I believe you will be forgiven...

This message is taken from the book : Daily Wisdom from the Bible, Encouragment for Every Day

GO!GO! Jia You! Gina!
GO!Go! Jia You! To whoever is facing this problem too. :)

2006-09-04T14:41:00.000-07:00

Is 1431 rite now...29mins more to the busiest period of Cafe Gailee at British Council....ehehhe...rite now...wat can i do is to slack all my way thru till the busiest period arrive!!! Working at Cafe Gailee...hmm..ok lah...but the pay is' ... ' tt all i can say...4 bucks per hour leh! Sian...nvm..2 more months i am going to leave this cafe n go back to my pervious one...cos...i still enjoy working there ar..n the pay is better than here lor...plus..cafe gailee drink...no standard one...if u wan to drink nice coffee...nv come to cafe gailee ok...cos really not up to standard ar..haiz...gosh..working at cafe gailee is not enjoyable...is dame S-I-A-N!!! n please lah..the food here is not nice too...compare to il caffe de roma...hello...cafe gailee cannot fight ar...wat is on my mind now is...SIAN SIAN SIAN!!! God please get me out of here...hehhe...btw...my memories wif W34J going to post up sooner or later...jus gonna wait..hhehhee...

2006-08-29T00:59:00.000-07:00

Yday was my last day of job at il Cafe De Roma....cos the boss decided to close the outlet there...haiz...all the stuffs are all transfer to the Changi outlet...hello! Please, that is too far for me lah...if no sch...i am still able to make it lah..wat if sch reopened? I cant lah...haiz...but the boss asked me whether i want to go back there to work, if the next outlet is open? Erm...at first i gave it a yes...but...after much consideration..i tink the company is too unorganised le...cos the news of closing the outlet at Scotts was a very last min one...another reason is...i need to see who will be working at the Cathey outlet first, before i go over there...however, this is the first cafe i worked...n i really enjoyed the days over there...people there take good care of me...they are very friendly...esp a chef..AH EWE...he take care of me alot...n teach me lots of stuffs..hehhe...hmm...i still love working in a cafe...eventhou the pay is low...i still take it..cos i wan a job tt i can learn smth out of it n not onli doing serving n a job i hab a passion for...I wan to open a cafe now!!! How i wish i hab the capital now...n open one now...creating space where people can feel love n peace...dwelling their time there...a place where is stress-free...hehhee...how to create this space? i really wonder how...but my spirit told me b4...is only thru God...is not abt where is ur location...is not abt how big is ur cafe...is abt carrying God's presence to ur workplace...hmm..thou now...i am jobless..i will take this time to rest ba..cos..hab been sick for 2 weeks le...haiz...anyway...wed will be going to sentosa wif my W34J calssmates...cant wait ar..hahaha...n after tt going for chalet for 2 days wif my girlfriends...den friday meeting my dear W355 for cell group meeting at peishan's hus....sat is my fav nite...having svc at expo n serving God as n usher...hope tt colin chong will not ask for one seat again..or else i am going to usher him to sit wif the choir ar..hahhaa...sun...having activity in the afternoon too..hahaha..my whole is booked! HA! happening ar...next week having whole lots of activities too..hahahaha..if no activities..i will oso make sure i hab one!!! maybe..tell my dad n mum to bring me to club pub..hahhaha..sound so stupid rite..hahhaha...but if they dun tag along...they wont let me go de..cos they will worry...so i tell them to bring me there for a few times...den next time i can go wif my friends liao le..hehehhe...clever am i?hehehe..hope it works lah!!!hhehe....

::...Being a Daniel and an Esther is the world...Salt of the earth..light of the world....::

2006-08-24T15:04:00.000-07:00

...Times flies...
...1st semester in RP ended...
...Mood towards the holidays...
...No longer the same...
...Never felt this before...
...How I wish...
...We could all go back to 17th April 2006...
...The 1st week of school...
..Seeing the unfamiliar faces in W34J...

...How can anyone be happy during the holiday...
...Knowing that...
...Once school reopen...
...Friends in W34J...
...No longer your classmates...
...How sad is that...

...The times we enjoyed once...
...Now...
...Can only be remembered...
...Memories of W34J...
...Never be forgotten...
...Reasons being why...
...Because...
...W34J...
...Cheer up my everyday...
...Never make me want to drag my feet into the class...
...I Love You Guys...

Guys...though is a sad moment...but since we had choosen RP...we will be used to it...Guys...time may flies...but remembered...our memories will not fly away...Guys..hope all of you in the next semester will find another W34J...Enjoy! Smile! God Bless!:)

:the memories will be publishing soon:

2006-08-23T22:55:00.000-07:00

These are some pictures I took with my stupid bro...we were jus playing with some of our facial expressions and with the camera...ehhehe...some of them turn out to be very natural...I love it..hehe...me and my dumb bro..hehheh...wat a sister...wat a bro...hehehe...

2006-08-01T00:50:00.000-07:00

I was just thinking about, how to post this blog up...take a long time to post this... indeed life is so unpredictable...anything can jus happen at any moment of our lives...imagine urself ending up ur life at a age of 9...i was feeling...i habnt even enjoy my life enough...i habnt been a upper primary student...not yet a sec sch student..nv enjoy sec sch life...dunno wat is BGR...nv know how a teenager feels lyk...habnt touch the any blusher and make-up...there are jus lots of thing i habnt done yet...

Haiz...even it had been a long time ever since i heard her laughters...but i still do remembered how she sounds..the way she smiles and the ways she reacts...she is a cute little girl...yet..she got to stop her life on 30 August 2006...All of us was lyk...(....... ...... ........ ........)

My Father in heaven...i feel so unfair for her...yet i know is not my will but yours...erm..jus dun get me wrong...i am not saying God's will for her...is death...but ppl...do remember tt diseases come from devil who come to steal, to kill and to destory...he is jus so cruel...why! why! why he got to attack an innocent life..a little girl..y is he so cruel...I mean she habnt know GOD yet..and he jus come n attack her jus lyk tt..WHY!

Why does he enjoy stealing...killing and destorying...devil...ur days is number ed liao lah! When Jesus is back...u will be DEAD! :P BLEH! argh! stupid devil...argh!

...::...:: Jesus is coming back...::...::

2006-07-25T13:18:00.000-07:00

Sunday went working again...start from 10am end at 6pm...Many things happened obviously...

Sunday i witness an incident at my workplace...i learnt smth new in life. I understand y God nv created colours alone but shades of colours in life. God nv create us to live life in a black n white world but a colourful one. With different shades of individual colours.

When we feel happy we sometime will use words like...
cheerful, content, delighted, glad, jolly, joyful, lively, merry, overjoyed, peaceful, pleased and satisfied...

Different words had different shades of pink. It goes the same for sad. I guess this why God create so many words for happy as he create different shades of colours...In life thing will nv be very happy(very pink) or very sad(very blue). Sometimes, there is a mixture of colours in one particular feeling. That explain y God created a colourful world instead of a plain one.

:: ... ::: Colours of Life Is Created To Beautify Your World ::: ... ::

2006-07-22T00:42:00.000-07:00

Hmm..is kind of funny...i jus post one blog not long ago..and now i posting another one..hehehe..actuallyi read Lynde blog jus now...i nv read one blog tt stated...best friend...oh gosh..after reading her blog..i melted! It was so touching...i almost burst into tears ar...

Lynde..is not my best friend..but she is my true friend...in my whole entire life..i believe it is God who place her in my life...she is someone so real..nv hide all her feeling towards smth...she jus comment things base on how she feel. To certain ppl..i neo they cant take it..but jus love ppl being frank wif me..i dislike ppl going ard the bush when it is not neccessary...she is not afraid of wat ppl going to say abt her..i mean..she tok sense ar..she is jus stating the facts...the way she tok to me...even when i hear negative things abt me from her..i dun feel tt she is pulling me down...but i know she is jus stating the fact...i mean when she say the negative stuffs..she wont be saying infront of the huge crowd of ppl..

like what she says...we encourage each other spiritually...we share the same vision too..even we r from 2 different zone... We confide things with each other and we pray for each other when we are in trouble..she know everthing about me ar..she knows how i feel at times..hmm..got alots to express but..i guess words cant express much..is more than words ar...i just simply love her..

Lynde...i thank God for placing u in my life..all these while thanks for being there for me when i needed somebody...you are an iron..i am an iron..iron shrapen iron...we shall grow in the kingdom of God...God loves you and I love you too..

2006-07-21T23:45:00.000-07:00

Wednesday..went to work again..hmm..actually i was very scare to go back lor...becos of last sunday...however, got to overcome ar...hmm..wednesday was a very enjoying time for me actually...hahhaha..work wif firduz..he is a very nice guy sia..hahaha..teach me lots of stuffs..he is oso very helpful...hahaha..plus he knows how to speck chinese! hahaha..very acturate lor..hahaha...i was so shocked leh..when he speak chinese...he sound so nice ar..ahhaha..enjoy working wif him ar...ehhehe..he jus so different from the other malay...hhhehe..nice guy ar..

Ate the AL SALMONE at my workplace...it taste so nice ar..very delicious sia...guess some of u all should jus go there for a meal someday..hehhe..oh btw my work place called the IL CAFFE DE ROMA...so if free go there for lunch ar..remember to give tips huh! or else dun come in..hahaha..kidding..

Wa..working n studying at the same time is indeed very tiring for me ar...but..with God grace..my result turn out to be good ar..hahaha..all thanks to my God ar...my results of my tests..i shall tell my admin...lynde...to help publish on my blog too..hahaha..find tt she jus enjoy doing this ar...ehhehe..lynde ar..how ar...i find myself falling in love wif u ar..ahhaha..kidding ar..hmm..guess she say me again..hahhaa..thanks lyn...

2006-07-18T12:30:00.000-07:00

2006-07-17T10:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was an exciting and a hectic day for me...went to my workplace...I was supposed to report at 6pm...hehehehhe..I was super guai..I reported at 5pm leh...gosh! y am I so proud of that...hahah...obviously I was being blur again..really a sotong ar..hhaha...I was like...asking myself y am I so early!haiz...I left with no choice..I took a stroll in Scott shopping centre..hmm...actually was on phone wif lynde..hmm..actually..I WAS on phone wif her..the moment I stepped out of my hus..so I was on phone wif her for two hours lah! GOSH! I mean...before I came out of my place...I did charge my phone...I DID! But, becos of her...my phone was dead again..hhahaha..

Actually cannot blame her lah...she acc me until 545pm..hahaha..back to my workplace..haiz...yday I was tinking that, I can slack there cos the cafe is lyk no one lah...den..at 730pm I had a shock of my life...the ppl were not walking in...they were lyk flowing into the cafe...gosh! That was only part of the story...wat really made me worried was that...I AM LEFT ALONE TO SERVE ALL THE PEOPLE THERE! I mean each table I got to get 5 things done. This is how it goes:

1) Give the meun
2) Take the orders
3) Serve the items
4) Bill please!
5) Clear the table

I was lyk...HELLO! how come I am the only one serving! Where are the rest! With this situation...ppl were like saying our service was...YUCKS! Oh..gosh...my fault??? Is confirm a NONO...but, I do not know y...at that moment I feel lyk crying ar...guess..becos I got lots of ppl upset! Haiz...I was called out by my manger! At that very moment...I was saying...die..guess going to be scolded...hahhaha...but, not leh...guess wat...my manger said that was to train me...hahhaha..she said, last time she oso kena this..oh my! When I heard that...I was lyk...praise the Lord..hehehhe...I mean who else can bring me thru except Him ar...thank God...After all..I enjoyed! Exciting huh! Hahahhaa...

Erm...people...my blog had already updated...hahahha...thanks to my beautiful admin ::...lynde...:: ehhehe...more to come...guess she's going to add lots of stuffs into my blog...hahahha...wonder whose blog is this...hahaha..anyway...must thanks her lah..hahaha..

:: ... :: Where is darkness :: ... :: ... :: I only can see His light :: ... ::

2006-07-13T12:40:00.000-07:00

After so much consideration, I finally decided to have my own blog. Cos Pas Tan once said that, our God is an advancing God. So if Jesus was on earth this day, He will blog too. So why not I should try blogging too. Besides that, my friends and my members are blogging too. I feel I am just like a mountain tortoise ar. I mean, I am already a computer idiot le, if even blogging I do not know how to blog. I am a confirmed "computer idiot". Btw, I have my own blog admin...hhahah...who is my true friend...LYNDY TOH...this blog skin you all are seeing now...was wonderfully done by her. She just know my taste. I simply love this blog skin.

Hey hey...btw I got my very very first job! Hahaha...this is my first time working...I admit..I was fed by sliver spoon from young. But! Not now anymore ok..heheh..yday I was my first day..I enjoyed it very much...hehehe..maybe its jus so fresh to me tt why I tend to enjoy it. I am the onli chinese there ar..hehe..but the people there are so friendly and helpful...I never tot I will have to go out and work but it was such an enjoyable experience. Enough of being a sliver spoon fed girl..grow up girl!

Things happened for a reason...Mine happened for a good reason...

On Christ the solid rock I always stand...climbing on His back preparing for a higher ground...

2006-07-10T23:49:00.000-07:00

Problem arise upon problem. The air seem so unclear to me now. My life seem so complicted now. What more I can say? Saddness and anger filling the air around me. Doubts and discord come upon one's life.
Finally, obtain the unity that we were longing for. For a short period we had the strongest bond. The trust we once had, LOST! Someone had came along our way when we are soaring. Someone! Someone had came to destory the unity, steal our happiness from our lives. Affecting our emontions and our lives that we are having now.
He once said, life is given as a gift to enjoy not a problem to solve. He also once said that, we are problem solver and a conquerer in His kingdom. He also once said that, trials and tributlations will come. He also said, iron sharpen iron.
His words are on my mind now. Appearing infront of my eyes so real. Word upon word, had now came to protect all of us from that someone. Who had came to steal, kill and to destroy all of us. These words are always standing forever strong even when life seem peaceful in our eyes. These words will only get stronger day by day, trail by trail, tributlation by tribulation,problem upon problem. We may appear to be weak but He had came with all these words. The someone fear and try to hide away from us.

The someone had to run and hide when He spoke His words to him. He spoke, " you had no way to hide and run...DEVIL"
The air seem unclear to me now. My life seem so complicated now. What more can I say? My life seem so challenged and exciting with my Lord...
My feeling toward my recent problem...hope it enlighten some of you who are facing problem in life. Remember, we are not a perfect human. We will be weak at times. But looking at a different way of the problem, you saw solution in life. HE taught me this...